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I don't understand what's wrong with me. Ok so this is horrible i've realized something today.
every girl i've ever slept with, has slept with me in my bed some point in time.
things just feel so just weird lately. so hectic. powderpuff, money, homecoming, taylor, taylor, bree, desiny...ugh.
lol get this too, i heard kenzie was jealous of me and destiny...wtf.
soo other than that, i lost my damn spanish book and apparently someone I know saw me drive off with it falling off the roof of my car. some girls came up and took it, and now I don't know what they did with it..
it's scary because it's NOT in the lost and found...wtf would you do with a spanish text book you found with all of random classwork in there.
obviously my names on them....why not just turn it in? they could look who it is and give it back.
damn. stupid people.
new manager comming in, idk how that's going to work out. my mom's riding my ass about this college bullshit. no one really to talk to about all this stuff so i guess writiting it out feels better. if not, at least I remember what I did lately.
i can't remember anything anymore....idk what that's all about either.
so here's my phyical stuff:
bones hurting
loss of memory
random pains
faster reflexes
smarter (in some random subjects)
drowseness
memory gain (in random times)
and clumsiness
what the hell.
hmm well i'm trying to go back into my music to help me, but it isn't. this year is DEFINATLY not working out the way I wanted it to.
homecoming was a bust, not horrible, but definatly not anything I hoped it would be. I suppose decent.
maybe sadies will be better...that is if I even get asked.
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[15 Jun 2006|01:29pm] |
blah new babe
Kye.
she's wonderful
i'm happy again
but problems in the home. dun dun dun.
yelling, slamming doors, crying. Not fun for a child of 16
that's right 16
yay me.
ok i get out of the house before i get hit
bye everyone :)
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| Blame it on bad luck |
[15 May 2006|06:35pm] |
Wow I dont know what was up with me today
I felt like I was on the verge of collapsing.
Oh I was very suprised on how helpful Candice is.
She's pretty wise too ^-^ helped alot.
I guess....I have matured to some extent.
A pretty good amount for the short period of time i'd say.
I just wish other people besides my close friends see it.
=/
Well today wasn't so bad.
And....blah lol I don't know, but I have a feeling i'll be using this journal ALOT more....
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[14 May 2006|09:04pm] |
blee blah blah blah
blooooob.
wha?
hehe derka.
omg?!?!
idk wow....i'm so sore.
it was pretty cool hanging with mike again, we havent in a while. we went swimming at midnight, it was so awesome
but i wish the pool was like 10 degrees warmer
so we just sat at the spa.
ha oh and this is weird.
ok i was working out alright?
and i tried to lift 140
and i could lift it a lil, then i just got stuck. XD
so that sucks, i just couldnt get it past a certain point.
so i work out and do other stuff, legs, abs, back, triceps and what not.
then i ask mike to do a contest to hold "tv postiton" the longest
mike:0:02:31:24
me: 0:08:16:32
ok we did that same contest in weight training in the beginning of the year, my time was around 7 min, and i came in second, barely second, i could have got first! lol
and yeah so i passed out on the floor basicly after that, unable to move.
then i wake up, and go try to do 140 again. done. 5 reps. EASY!
move the weight to 150. DONE!! 3 reps easy!
lol then i laughed and passed out sorta again.
fun night. :D
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[08 May 2006|04:41pm] |
ok ok
i need to calm down
-sigh- i've been acting immature lately about...her, brenna. yes my ex.
i dont know, i guess i've been hearing so much stuff, people saying this and that....its all gone to my head, and the easiest way to get over her i thought...was to build up some kind of person i dont like. and it worked....temporarily....but aaron also brought some good points and my mom read me like a book and pulled a Dr.Phil on me.
"maybe the reason you and her dont talk, or have a friendship is because you never had closure"
i guess that's true, it was just BAM SWAZAM! its over.
and katie told me something unexpected "brenna says you should grow some balls and say hi"
WHAT?! are you kidding me? so i asked her why she would say that, she says "i told her you wanted to say hi" ...what? why? "oh because you always talk about her" ...eh? i've only mentioned one thing on play previews that i have to admit, she's pretty good. other than that...i pretty much keep all thoughts inside.
maybe i should say hi, but i thought she hated me....with the whole trying to trick me into being lez thing...and how i've heard she told a few ppl about the recording thing...-sigh- immature days.....
but then again, i never got her side of the story on that, i've been so lost in my own hatred i never bothered to ask.
i dont know, i guess....i'm scared she wont even talk to me, or just a sarcastic remark. she knows how to burn. i know.
i guess we'll just have to see.
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[03 May 2006|08:31pm] |
blah, i rarely use this thing anymore
ok so....gonna get my permit soon :)
that's good.
umm...me and my gf are alright...so that's good
hehe i get to see her this weekend..hopefully
grrr i was 2 pts away from getting my letter in track
i'm varsity though, so that's cool
blah ppl have been telling me i'm hot, hahahaha that's so funny
especially today, i wore my A7X jacket, my hair was half done, and flipping out at the ends, and i wore my glasses
and amber just happens to be all "you're just so damn cute!"
o.o' wtf lol
funny stuff though, saw bye bye birdie play previews, pretty good, i have to admit, everyone was good.....yes EVERYONE heh i dont even know if you're reading this or not, but yes you. even though you hate me, for some reason, i dont hate you.
and....i dont know why.
eh well anyway! this is a long ass post, and erm...oh i'm going to the show, promised a friend, last friday of the play, cause that's most convient. :)
does anyone wanna come with me??
7:30 on the 12th......oh shit that's my anniversary!
aww and my project is due that day, grr...poem book
ok lots of work to do *goes to study DMV manual* byes!
Jamess
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[04 Apr 2006|10:52pm] |
haha 1st at my meet, i so happy
does anyone read this besides ana? lol
anyway, yeah its late and i felt like typing stuff
me and aaron are talking, yay!
blab bloo blee
i love costco, lol that place rocks, and i totally forgot about it for a while
but now it's back! with avengance!
oh i got to listen to ALL OF THE DANE COOK CD with amber, lol that was so funny, i'm happy she actually stayed with me throughout the WHOLE TRACK MEET! wow! never had a friend do that before! : D
okey dokey, hmm i think i'll.....umm.....play guitar during lunch tomorrow...not sure
oh yeah! i'll be mascot again! woot on friday! and i get to skip 7th period to go change and stuff...but we all know it couldnt take that long to get into a tiger outfit lol. so i just bs around! life is pretty good right now. :)
james, out
i want an ONS hahaha jk no, that would be weird.lol
BAM!(f)
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[03 Apr 2006|06:39pm] |
hehe
today was fun.
i heard a rant from a good friend
got my wallet back!
saw ppl fall in track, and i didnt!
and hung out with yoshie who which i havent talked to in forever
lol
and when i was gone, ppl were like "where the fuck is james"
haha, they missed me! : P
well too bad, NOW they want to talk to me
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[31 Mar 2006|11:51pm] |
just, -sigh-
yeah, well.....
nvm, ok livejournal updated. check.
done.
i'm out.
James
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| My god what a horrible day |
[27 Mar 2006|06:51pm] |
Hmmm i'm bleeding....I should fix that. one sec.
*is back* ok anyway, i'm trying to figure out how to play itoshii hito by Miyavi(not that any of you really know what that is but hey) it's really hard because he doesnt have any guitar tabs i can follow, just gotta do it by ear, i swear if i get this i will be the luckiest guy i know
well i wont get into my day, no one wants to hear that junk : P
alright i'm done.
:)
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[19 Mar 2006|08:52pm] |
Tomorrow I have a meet at spring valley!
yay.
On the bright side, i'll probably get more points, and i'm already more than half way to lettering this year. 7/15pts needed. and we've only had one meet!!!
next year's goal: Make varsity soccer team
most unlikely, but hey i can try right?
Oh and i might start doing martial arts again!!! YES!!! Kick some ass with my bud Mike, i'll actually get to spar him in the ring instead of at his house heh.
I'm itchy
:D
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[18 Mar 2006|02:24am] |
Its funny how first impressions tend to work out.
Some seem sweet, kind, and caring, maybe a lil out there, but nice all the same.
Its funny how time reveals a person's true nature.
Maybe that person, was the exact opposite of what you first thought.
And with that, im glad there's an upside and you find people who you thought were bad people, to actually be some of your most trusted friends.
Thanks to you people for showing me another life lesson.
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[02 Mar 2006|05:37pm] |
heh
life is such
i went to my first concert a while ago, last weekend.
i forgot to put that in! >.<
it was at the alley
i saw liz (brenna's friend, i think?) and we talked and stuff, which was good cause my friends were off being silly anyway :)
well ya, i went into a mosh pit, pretty silly, didnt hurt at all, and tripped over some dude who got trampled, then i got trampled. it was awesome. hehe
got a t shirt from them
im glad me and aaron are still friends, im not sure why, but i thought id like to say that, he's cool lol
hmm track is crazy!
exausting every fibef or my being!
everyday practies! even tomorrow! its saturday!!!! at 8am!!
-_-' gotta do this though, keep my body in shape.
aww ketsu cant do track for a while cause he's enelidgeable (sp?) and yeah, that sucks, he's a pretty cool guy too, glad he doesnt want to kick my ass XP
okey dokey, trying to get my band together now, got a bassist (which is one of the hardest parts to get, besides drummer)
and ya, im singer, and possibly rythym (sp? yeah i know..im out of it) guitarist
so ya!
oh, i got a car!
just...cant drive it yet....XD dammit!!!
lol ya, oh and last part, i get to go to haiwaii for 2 weeks during the summer, get to take someone, but no one can go!!!! :(
oh well ill try to have fun anyway!
byes
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[18 Feb 2006|01:49pm] |
i dont know what it is....
i have a bad feeling in my stomach
something bad is comming....
ugh its making me sick.
FUCK!
oh well whatever happens happens
: D
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[17 Feb 2006|05:48pm] |
well lets see
im grounded,
but i get to go out on weekends!
i have a D in biology now -_-' damn
aww me and giselle are drifting away, but at least me and nicole are talking :)
its sad, but i guess ok cause i still got her to talk to
lol the whole me and zena situation is not resolved but at least it quited down alot now
hmmm now i just gotta figure out how to get my life back on track
who knew a snowboarding trip and valentines day would have such an impact on my life!
oh well :)
good to shake things up a lil bit eh?
;) peace out yall lol
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[13 Feb 2006|07:13pm] |
wow....
what am i going to do?
i....
i need to think
this is so weird.....
im happy
but then im sad cause i hurt someone.
yes or no....what will happen?
ttyl ppl
pray for me!!!
James
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[10 Feb 2006|11:08am] |
im grounded, grrrr...
well im stuck at home for a lil while.
i dont know what to do!
guitar will be my savior i supose.
i still got my relatives over here, they're leaving today.
yay!
well that's all for now ttyl
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[05 Feb 2006|10:12pm] |
today was pretty....weird lol.
ya cousins and family are here now
i licked someone's face
im tired
i came up with new guitar riffs, hopefully someday it'll become a song
and i can put that song on my demo.
and you can all hear it!
i got an anynomous comment from someone saying somethin like "fuck you faggot" i dont even remember i just deleated it as soon as i saw it. i have a feeling its someone that know's brenna.
god, ppl need to grow up.
well w.e.
life has been hectic and im ready to just chill and not worry bout everything.
we'll see what happens on the next hopefully not so exciting episode of "James's Life!"
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| hurt. emo entry |
[29 Jan 2006|02:13pm] |
i guess ive been hiding alot of my feelings lately....
feelings i didnt want to have...
today, i realized it and it hit me like a truck.
all the pain and sorrow i should have felt before, right when everything happened (but didnt) it all came out because of one song.
it...it isnt even like...really pertaining to my situation, but the words bring out a feeling that ive been silencing for a while.
good song though.
Armor for sleep - The truth about heaven
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[26 Jan 2006|06:41pm] |
hmm...
school life is toning down
getting a little boring
school...is.....blah
idk, i feel funny, and i dont know what to do about it.
oh well i guess ill just deal with it.
ok peace. ttyl ppl
lol barely anyone reads this.
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[22 Jan 2006|06:56pm] |
learned how to play some more songs!
dunno why, but i felt like playing any song that came up that sounded good.
crazy.
i learned
HIM: wings of a butterfly, soul on fire
P.O.D.: Goodbye for now (just came out)
All American Rejects:Top of the world
Submersed:Flicker ( i actually RE learned that one)
and thats all for right now, guess ill go learn more.
oh and i saw her today....still havent talked to her....-sigh-
oh well...it will never feel the same i guess.
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| i ran! |
[18 Jan 2006|08:25pm] |
my foot! it works! holy shit!
lol i can run
not long, hurts after a while, but it works!
yay
track varsity team, here i come....
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| hmm i guess nobody reads these |
[15 Jan 2006|02:31am] |
oh no matter.
just for my eyes then.
lol well lets see....
talked to aaron! me and him are still cool.
god am i sore, mike kept wanting to work out this weekend.
oh well i guess my body could use it right?
ive been happy lately
just....playin the field i guess
testing is comming up
BRING IT ON!
lol ill fail anyway.
well its 2:30 am so im headin off to bed, or not.
kk byes
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| crazy! |
[11 Jan 2006|07:51pm] |
wow...its beginning to feel like it was.
crazy and spinning and i dont know what is going on!!!
lol just the way i like it ;)
i gots a mistifier that changes color
woo its awesome. it leaked all over lol, i didnt put the stopper so the water kept comming out from the bottom.
well hmm oh ya me and marcelo picked up doggy poopie today, i stepped in it -_- ew...i had to shoot my foot with a hose....didnt all come out *throws up* soo gross.....lol it was pretty funny though. i should have shot marcelo with the hose.....
hmm well anyway! ahh shit i lost my guidance pass! fuck fuck fuck...i hope it'll just turn up outta no where.
oh and last thing, marcelo said he talked to brenna today, saying something about when she should come back to talk?
well i just want to be normal again, i miss talking to her as a friend. :( well i will just keep myself busy until then.
oh! and im going to the movies tomorrow.
apparently mike said he was going to the movies, but i asked him to hang tomorrow he said yes o.O?
lol then my friend amber called and is like, whatya doin tomorrow? hanging with mike. oh he's seeing a movie with us. wha?!?
lol ya.
oh...
u wanna come?
sure?
lol ok ill call you tomorrow.
idk wtf is goin on!!! wooo000ooo
damn! this is a long post. well ttyl ppls love ya!
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[08 Jan 2006|08:40pm] |
ya things have been going well
i dont hurt so much anymore...
:)
im starting to not mind being single anymore
last weekend was the best ever....
i hurt my leg though,
ouch!
ya lol
me being stupid
well ya...
i hope more fun days to come!
: D
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